You know funny thing about attending wedding nowadays, people especially my own family member would always end up bombarding me with the "when are you getting married?" I guess i'm at the age where i should be getting married. Luls. Yeah, my mum got married at the age of 24 and my sister in law got married at the age of 22. Gosh, i guess the pressure is really getting to me. But am i prepared to get married? Honestly, ask any girl in the world, who wouldn't want to get married, every girl in the world have their own dream wedding, but like the malay saying, jodoh and ajal tue takda siapa yang tahu. Who knew maybe my mr. Right is just right in front of me but the timing is not right yet. So till then, i guess i'll just have to wait for the "knight in shining armour" to come.
What i've realised when i started to like someone, i'll always end up changing myself trying to impress him. I guess that's why it never worked out. It's very funny too that my friend keep asking me to change so that i'll hitched someone. So today, i asked myself, "should i change myself just to impress men?" After a deep conversation with myself (yes i sometimes have a conversation with my inner self), i've came out with one resolution, it's not too late for a new year resolution kan? Hehe. I'm gonna change to be a better me but not to impress men. I'm gonna change because i need to change, because i wanna change and because it's my happiness over others that i need to chase.
Sometimes i just wish people would stop asking me, "when am i going to get married?" When the time comes, he'll come. So for the time being i'm gonna go chase my happiness instead of chasing men to tie them down. Till then,
Lots of love,
Aqilah
