first impression

aku pernah menulis pasal topik nie dlm blog lama. and i kinda just feel like writing it again. mengapakah? pasal lately nie selalu jumpa org-org baru dlm hidup. hai awak-awak semua, thanks for making 2014 a new and awesome experience for me. ok move on, these are some of the first impression that i got from people.

1. sombong
2. garang.
3. ganas.
4. kasar.
5. nampak mcm pendiam.
6. pilih kawan.

Ok sebenarnya banyak lagi, but these are the common first impression of people towards me. bila dengar alahai, saya bukan semua tue. ok la, mungkin no 3 dgn no 4 tue ada betul sket la. that one i can't deny. psl chek nie mmg ganas dan kasar kadang-kadang. tp sebenarnya x la all the time, ikt tempat dan keadaan jugak. so here's my explanation to why i'm not any of the above.

1. sebenarnya saya bukan sombong, tapi saya nie ada sedikit masalah awkward penguin in first meeting. kalau awak tak tegur saya mmg smpi sudah la saya x reti berckp dgn awk. probably because sometimes i have inferiority complex, kdg-kdg tue bila meet new people saya selalu rasa insecure dgn diri sy sndri. boleh ke aku blend in and stuff like that. so i chose not to talk. tapi bila awak dh kenal saya, saya tak sombong kan? unless u did something that breaks my heart la. mmg aku kalau jumpa kau, aku buat tak kenal la. haha.

2. ok lah, mungkin korang kata aku nampak garang psl aku tak senyum. tapi takkan la aku nak senyum and menyengih jer 24 jam. karang orang hantar aku gi tanjung rambutan plak, eh tak mau la. tanjung rambutan mcm jauh sgt, permai dh la. haha. ok lawak bodoh di situ. mesti la aku akn kurang senyum atau x senyum langsung pada kau, masa kita mula-mula jumpa atau terserempak. the answer is very simple, you don't know me and i don't know you. karang senyum lebih-lebih, kau ingat aku nak ngorat kau pulak. aduyai.yes i know senyum tue sedekah, tapi aku dh praktik kn dulu dah, senyum to strangers, end up diorg pandang aku pelik semcm. so bukan lah aku x senyum pada strangers lg, tp aku dh kurang kn. so if i don't smile to you. sila jgn amek hati. it's either, aku tak nak berada dlm keadaan awkward or aku x perasan korg. aku nie rabun yer. harap maklum.

3 & 4. boleh gabungkan kot, psl lebih kurang sama jer. ouh, iols bukan tomboy yer, despite being in a girl school for five years. just that in my family,i was the first granddaughter, jadi aku nie dari kecik berkawan dgn abg-abg. and korg paham la perangai budak laki mcm mne kan, lagi2 growing up, aku dgn abg aku yg jarak 2 tahun nie jer. tue la kawan tidur, tue la kawan gaduh, tue la kawan main. honestly i have never own any barbie doll yer. permainan aku time budak2 dulu adalah wrestling, ceper, guli, gasing, tamiya. batu seremban tue mmg smpi sudah aku tak reti main. haha. so it's kinda embedded in me la to be rough and tough. lagi satu, mcm aku ckp td aku ada inferiority complex, aku jenis takut kecewa, sedih dan sewaktu dgnnya, sbb tue la it's hard for me to let my guard down. so, mmg aku akn bersikapsedikit kasar la dgn org esp guys. harap maaf yer, esp yg cpt terasa dgn kata2 i yg tak reti nak censored nie. bukannya tak nak jadi damsel in distress yg menanti prince charming dtg selamatkn. hello, that's like every girls dream kot. tapi kalau prince charming tue end up bkn seperti yg kita harapkn, sudahnya kita yg kecewa kn. so baik jd tough and rough ala2 princess dlm tangled tue. kurg2, kalau kau kena tinggal nanti x de la kecewa, merana smpi x nk mkn minum semua. tapi kn sebenarnya, kalau korg kenal aku betul2, i can be a really sweet and manja person. tp tue la, x de la dgn smue org aku nk buat perangai manja menggedik2 aku tue kn. karang kena sumpah plak dgn org. haha.

5. sila rujuk jawapan no 1. malas la nak ulang cerita sama.

6. aduyai, kita nie dikatanya memilih kawan. tak la awk, kita kawan dgn semua org. tak percaya, kita kawan dgn mak2 org, dgn bapak org kurang sket la, mati kne cepuk dgn bini diorg nnt. kita kawan dgn kakak2 dan adik2 yg kadang2 jauh beza umur dr kita. dgn abg2 nie kurg sket. karang girlfriend dia kejar aku dgn parang, mati la nak. i have gay friends, i have lesbian friends, i have trans friends. kan saya dh ckp sy kwn dgn semua org. so jgn la segan2 nk kawan dgn saya. hehe. tapi ada la certain kawan yg saya dh tak kawan dh. kalau tanya kenapa? pasal these people sometimes they're too negative. and i cant tahan negative people, peh dia punya aura, boleh buat kau pun terikut-ikut negative. so kalau dh 2-3 kali ckp tak jalan gak. goodbye my friend. selagi kau bwk negativity kau, sila jgn masuk kn aku dlm plan hidup kau yer.

thus, sila la jgn malu-malu dan segan-segan nk berkawan dgn saya yer. kot-kot awk ternampak saya kt mana2 tegur jer, insyaallah i wont make funny and awkward faces. tapi tue la, selalunya first impression kita pada org mesti akn berubah bila kita dh kenal org tue. so kalau awk nk tau saya org yg mcm mne. jomlah kita berkawan.




signing out with love,
lalaqla

life is a blessing, why are you stressing out over tiny matters

perasan tak kita nie selalu sgt merungut, dan benda- benda yg kita rungutkan tue sebenarnya kalau difikirkan balik, alahai apalah sangat. 

as a student, I realised that kerja kita nie merungut jer. contohnya:

1. ala banyaknya assignment

2. byknya duit habis buat printing

3. bilalah duit biasiswa nak masuk

4. alahai class full satu hari

5. apalah lecturer nie, nk cancel class bagitau la awl2 

haha. betul tak? tipulah kalau korg x pernah ckp bnda2 nie, or at least terfikir psl bnda2 nie kn. 

sebenarnya kita tak perasan, benda yg kita "stress"kn tue bukannya apa sgt pn. kita jer yg tak reti bersyukur. whenever we have that thought cbe reflect balik, time2 yg kita merungut tue assignment byk la, class full la, duit byk hbis printing la dgn berapa byk masa kita buang berjimba. tgk wayangnya lain, tgk korean dramanya lain, kuar karok, main bowling bagai. time tue tak teringat pn kn psl nk belajar. bukannya fikir assignment melambak lagi. nk buat mcm mana, mmg itu sifat manusia kan. 

i'm saying this based on my own experience. balik bilik bknnya nk buat benda berfaedah, laptop tue dulu yang dikejar, facebook dulu yang dibukak. 

sebab tue la aku cakap kita nie x reti bersyukur dgn apa yg ada. kt luar sana ramai lagi yg tak mampu, tapi diorg bahagia jer. kenapa? because they are counting their blessings and not misfortune. rasa bersyukur dgn apa yg diorg ada tp tue x buat diorg berhenti berusaha ke arah yg lebih baik. kita nie yg lengkap serba serbi, asyik merungut tak cukup itu ini. 

So marilah bersyukur dgn apa yg ada. hidup nie adatlah kalau kau ditimpa masalah, kita bukan hidup dalam dunia fairytale yg semuanya indah. tapi dibalik tiap masalah tue, akan ada yg indah darinya. so why are you stressing out? there's always a silver lining behind everything kn. chill back, relax and enjoy the journey. percayalah di setiap kali kau focus pada benda2 yg baik, kau takkan teringat pn pada masalah kau yg ntah apa2 tue. 

sigining out with love, 

lalaqla

A New Beginning

I promised myself that 2014 is going to be awesome. Hence let's put away all the negativity and lead a beautiful positive life. So to do so, the new blog comes in handy especially when the old blog is full of craps that I wrote when I was immature and mad. If you guys are looking for the old blog, forget it, I've made the blog private to only myself. Well looking back at what I wrote on that blog, I'm predicting disaster in a few years to come especially when I enter working life. Thus the need to make it private is very much important.

Probably it's a little bit too late to put up a new year resolution especially when February is ending pretty much in a few days time but who cares right. It's my resolution, and who said that resolution can only be made during new year. So here goes the list of what I want to achieve in 2014:

1. Be a better Muslim.
2. Lose all the unnecessary weight
3. Be a better student especially when it comes to attendance.
4. Involve myself with more social work.
5. Stop being an awkward penguin and socialize with everyone without prejudice.
6. Improve time and money management.
7.Try not to keep my emotion and problem bottled up.
8. Be more understanding towards other people's need.
9. Ignore negativity.
10. Stop making enemy.

I realized that despite being a happy go lucky girl, I've also been throwing a lot of tantrums. Thus I shall stop all the nuisance and start to be more understanding. And yes, I'm a stubborn lil girl who sometimes think that I'm always right and that is one of the area that I really need to improve on. Be more understanding towards other people idea and what they have to say. So here's to a better me. Let's go!!

signing out with love, 

lalaqla