kenapa saya nak kurus

kenapa saya nak kurus? jawapan dia saya pun sebenarnya tak tahu. unlike other people who have their big WHY to lose weight, I actually still can't figure out my big WHY. bestie saya nak kurus lepas kena dump dgn boyfriend dia. ada kawan saya nak kurus psl nak cari boyfriend. I actually don't really know why i wanted to lose weight. mmg la tiap2 tahun azam nak kurus kn. tapi hampeh. but if i must say it probably starts early this year. bila my big brother yg mmg tugas dia adalah meng'condemn' adik dia nie bet dgn my cousin yang i won't lose weight this year. cis betul kan. tapi mmg sifat abg saya mcm tue. cara dia tunjuk dia caring nie pelik2 sikit. dia pnya ayat melawak mmg boleh buat mkn dalam wei, tp ktorg pnya family mmg gurau kasar pn. so jiwa mmg kena kental la.

i'm the girl who was always blessed with so much love, dari kecik mmg dibesarkan dgn air tangan umie. lagi2 masa masuk stf dlu, every week request jer nk mkn apa msti umie masakan. so mmg dari kecik seorang laila aqilah tue hobi dia makan, al makanya badan dia pn bertambah2 la gebuss. if you still don't know i'm the first grand daughter pak bakar, yang baya saya ada dua org lagi gadis ( sorg dh jadi mak budak dh) yg ayu2. since i grew up dgn my brother jer, al makanya saya nie sedikit buas dan lasak daripada gadis2 sebaya saya dulu. i had never owned any barbie doll ekh. permainan hari2 ada wrestling, main guli, main basikal. senang cerita masa kecik ikut bontot along jer la petang2. so i don't really care bout my appearance, haah la start ada rasa nak melawa pn masa kolej, tue pn ikt mood, kalo tak wa sarung jeans, t shirt dgn tudung selimpang jer. masyaAllah selekeh betul, tapi sekarang pn mcm tue gak, dtg malas dia seluar tidur tue pun blh jadi bwk keluar. eh mcm dh menyimpang jer cerita nie.

so dah abes throwback, jom balik ke tahun 2014. so probably la one of the reason nk kurus psl the stupid bet that along made. but i don't think that's strong enough. 2013 i tried taking herbalife, tp mmg tak jalan la, pasal apa? i didnt say herbalife didnt work, byk jer org kurus minum herbalife tp i'm not that type of person who follows routine. pagi2 bangun buat shake. mula2 ok la, lama2 mmg x fun la kn. so there goes the effort to lose weight in 2013. tapi around oct 2013 i was diagnosed with a minor tumour, dua kali lak gak kena operate nk buang which effect dia smpi sekrg wa tak blh nk angkat kening belah kanan. kalo amek gmbr nampak kelakar wei. hahaha. so probably from there i started to think, i need to take my health seriously, walaupun tumour tue x de kena mengena dgn me being heavy weight tapi sebagai manusia yang plg tak suka hospital, mmg tak la aku nak masuk hospital lagi kn. especially bila tiga kali warded dpt bedmate yg annoying.

so where to start, how to start? my bestie by the time i started had already lose 10 kg. was i inspired, a bit la. but i don't know why i didnt really push me to lose weight too. kesian dia penat bebel. oklah, since feb aritue ada cuti 1 month, so i decided to sign up for 1 month gym membership. thank god ada groupon wei. and i joined a program called jom kurus 1 malaysia under kevin zahri. tapi syg smpi sudah pn tak dapat jmpe kevin. haha. what i got from the program was beyond what i was expecting. i gain new friends which are now my family who shares the same dream and goal with me. betullah kalau kita nak kurus nie, kita kena ada support system yg kuat (note to along: support system nie maksud dia sokong yer bukan dok kutuk2 jer). and eventhough org ckp tips in losing weight is 80% nutrition and 20% physical activity, tp memandang kan aku nie jenis yg makan pn kadang2 ke laut, this program really teach me how to eat right, play right, work right. kalo tnya korg tau ke calories counting tue apa? msti ada yg tak tahu kan. so thanks to the program, i kinda manage to actually do something to lose weight. dan aku nie sebenarnya org yg sgt suka beraktiviti despite being gemuk, kalau tak takkan la masa gi krabi dulu aku beria nak gi treetop. it's kinda hard to do all those stuff you like when you're fat, so probably that's another why for me?

so here's list of things i wanna do when i reach a certain target:
80kg: wall climbing
75kg: absailing
70kg: panjat batu caves
60kg: ice skating

tak sabarnya. and i'm definitely going back to krabi to finish all the courses kt treetop tue. so far i've lost 10kg, agak2 before raya nie boleh lose lg 5 tak? so hujung tahun nak lost 20kg, mcm impossible tp let's give it a try la.

 nie la dua org manusia pendorong. the awesome teamleader. dua2 duduk pasir gudang tapi boleh kata hari2 dtg area jb melayan anak2 buah diorg beraktiviti.

 tau tak dia nie dulu 110kg, she managed to shed half off herself, gagah kan dia.

 and these are the awesome jk1m southern jb family, the support system. 

aku yang dulu bukanlah yang sekarang. haha 

my advice to those yang nak lose weight, start now, tak payah la nak tangguh2 and bagi byk alasan. hello been there. haha ouh, silalah selalu tgk diri kat cermin, jgn la bajet naa diri tue kurus lagi sebab muat lagi baju lama, takkan nak tunggu baju tertetas baru nk start kn.get yourself a scale please. tau tak i gained arond 20kg since i came back from australia. dan bajet gler berat tak naik psl x penah bother nak timbang kn. hah kau sekali timbang, menangis wei!! oklah dh penat membebel. adios, see you guys in the next post.

signing out with love, 

lalaqla